Addicted

I haven't posted here in over a year. I've wanted to. I've had ideas about what to write. I just haven't had that 'oomph' to get me writing. Until now.

I've talked openly on here about my weight loss journey, troubles with food, and my life in general. I joined Weight Watchers back in June. I got laid off from my job at the end of July. Put those two together and I lost a total of 17.4 pounds. I started at 170.4, which is the heaviest I've ever been. After I got laid off I lost 13 pounds and ever since I've been pretty much wavering around 151-153lbs.


In January I had decided to add a Whole 30 into the mix. I thought it would help get rid of the 'sugar dragon' that takes over so much of my life. Diet Coke, cookies, reese's cups, m&m's.... So much sugar! It's quite clear I'm addicted to sugar. Ugh! Why!?!?!? I was born with an addictive personality, so I'm basically just screwed anyways!

The last 6 months or so was tough. I'd never been let go from a job before and I felt like a failure. Luckily I found a job to hold me over until something long term came around.  I found a wonderful job and life is probably the best it's ever been for me. I am in a great relationship with a man I met in the fall. We are coming up on 6 months and talking about moving in together and ring shopping! My brother just got engaged. Life is great!

If life is so great, then what is my problem? Why am I still floundering about getting healthy? I'm great at making a meal plan and meal prepping, but then I fall through. I fall through, because something else catches my eye and sounds better than a salad or chicken.

I wanted to start writing again and get this out there. I know I'm not the only one going through this. Everyone has their own journey and their own struggles. Maybe just writing about it will help.