Friday Feelings

Happy Friday everyone! I'm tired today. I think I slept really hard last nigh and then getting up this morning was really touch. I overslept like crazy and only had 20 minutes to get ready before I needed to leave for work. It's a pop-tart kind of day. It's also 'casual Friday,' so I've decided to keep my k-swiss on :)

You want to know how I'm really feeling today? Well, I'm feeling quite 'blah.' I had a date last night with this guy I like. We had been on two dates before last night, both of which I initiated. After the second date there was a lot of texting and then there was more texting. And more texting after that. Finally I said texted saying as much as I've enjoyed texting with you, I'm not really interested in dating my phone. We laughed (to ourselves because this was all over text) as I told him that I like him, but I'm also a little old school when it comes to dating. He said that he didn't know what that means.  Maybe his was kidding, but again it was all over text so I'm not sure. Therefore, I explained that he needed to make plans with me.

That was all on Sunday. He asked me out (again, via text because no one calls anyone anymore) and we had dinner last night. When we sat down at the table I said, It's nice to see you in person. In person is so much better and we giggled about it.  I like this guy; he's attractive, funny, we have a lot in common and he's a big family guy. I guess over the course of the evening I felt like I pushed this date to happen. I don't want to feel like that. I want to feel like this guy wants to be around me and not because he felt obligated to ask me out.

After I got home from the date I was talking with my friend S and she put it really well for me: I know it's hard, especially when you like someone. I'm a big believer in letting him come to me. I truly want to know if he wants to see me, be around me, etc and not just be responding to me or being polite. Or not having the balls to say 'no, I think we're good as friends.'  So, with that in mind I'm going to step back a bit. If I don't, then I'll just build it up with expectations and then when it falls I'll get disappointed and have no one to blame for it but myself. After all, Expectations are pre-meditated Resentments. No one deserves that.

Dating is so hard!

It's a good time to remind myself of the wisdom that is Mandy Hale ~ Ladies, the right man for you will pursue you. Actively. He won't leave you wondering if he's into you or not. Thanks Mandy! I also like to keep in mind the wise words of Katy Perry ~

Baby, you're a firework
Com, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, "Aah, aah, aah"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, "Aah, aah, aah"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe

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