Just Let Go

There is a group of women that I am lucky enough to get to see every weekend.  These women are fabulous. They have given me strength when I've had none, have shared their guidance with me when I needed it, and have supported me through so much.  They are like a grown-up sorority of women, except we don't go to parties and get wasted like in college :)  A couple weeks ago we were talking about the concept of "letting go."  Realizing that we can't control everything and learning to accept that we can't control everything.  Well, that is not something that is easy for me to do.

There's a phrase that I hear every so often ~ Let Go and Let God.  I was raised Catholic and I have always believed in God, but the idea of allowing myself to let go of my control and have this Godly figure take over and leave it all in his hands . . . WHAT?  How do you do that? How do you even begin to go about doing that?  Then there's this thing called Faith.  Faith - according to Wikipedia - means to have confidence or trust in a person, thing, deity; Belief that is not based on proof.  I truly believe that everything happens for a reason.  That's having Faith, right?

Every night I fall asleep praying.  I was going through some personal stuff with a friend and I really didn't know what to do about it.  I knew that I needed to talk to this person about what was on my mind, but I didn't know how to bring it up or even what to say.  This person isn't always the easiest to talk to. We get along great, but sometimes I'm not sure what we can and cannot talk about. We've never really talked about super personal things and I think that was part of the road block for me.  After over analyzing it to death one night, while praying, I said to God, "I'm giving this all to do. I don't know what to do about it or how to handle it.  So, I'm going to let you take it and do with it what you will. I'm sure you have a plan, so here you go!  It's all yours!"  I cannot begin to tell you the amount of relief I felt!  It's not like I just forgot about (trust me I kept thinking about it).  I had no control over it and I needed to accept that.  That was the key thing to admit.

In this particular situation the only thing I could control was what I wanted to tell this person. I was so worried about how this person was going to respond, that I was stressing it over it like crazy. I can't control the outcome! I can't control what this person thinks of me or feels about me.  I have to let it go and let happens what happens.  Eventually, I found the right time to talk to this person and it went wonderfully!

There are a few other areas of my life that could really use some "letting go." Being a woman, or just being me, I over think things and analyze situations, text messages, etc.  If I don't the kind response I was expecting, then I go into over-thinking mode. Well, I need to stop that.  The only thing I can control is Me. How I react, how I respond, how I feel and what I do. The other person's response and feelings are their own. I can't control it. I need to take life as it comes. I need to live each and every day the way that feels best for me.  That's all I can do. God's got the rest!