I opened my emails today and read my daily inspiration. Boy, did it hit home -
As adult children, we are good - no, ingenious - at finding hiding places. Sometimes we hide behind our work by staying super busy. We hide in prayer itself - behind sweet-sounding words. We can choose to always be tired so we can hide in sleep. We can hide behind any of the "helper" roles by fixing others so we never have to fix ourselves. We can even make our life a hiding place by going through the emotions, saying all the right things, but never really encountering ourselves.
If we want to be found, we have to come out where somebody can find us.
I will identify my hiding places and make conscious decisions about choosing them or not.
(from the book Days of Healing, Days of Joy by Earnie Larsen and Carol Larsen Hegarty)
I have a list of things I want to do. Start my new Bible Study, work on some step-work, read a novel... If I wasn't napping all the time I could probably accomplish something. Am I hiding behind sleep to procrastinate? I tell myself that I need the sleep and that a day off is good for napping. But what is really going on in my subconscious? This is something I think I really need to look at and work on.
Do you find yourself hiding?